I Fear

As I look at the ring on my finger,
The thoughts invade my mind,
I can't seem to shake them,
so I write them down instead:

I fear I may not be what you need,
that I may let you down
and see the disappointment
coming through your eyes.

I fear I may not love
the way that you can,
don't you see?
First, I have to love me.

I fear the way you look at me,
'cause I've seen those looks before,
and I've been hurt by them,
worse than you'll ever know.

I fear to trust you,
I've had it betrayed before,
so to have my trust,
you must earn it.

I fear being with you,
I've had bad experiences,
they tend to surface when you're near,
you touch me and I tremble in fear.

But, I fear being alone,
so I'm here with you,
and I'll try to trust,
but I can't make a promise.

I just can't,
though you can ask,
I won't promise you,
I fear you too much.